I have many girl friends, but no girlfriend, that is what makes me so misserable.
Many of them at least once mentioned how nice I was, and some of them even mentioned that someday I would make a female happy, even worse, some even say they wish there were more men like me.
The funny thing is that the more I hear that phrase it starts to change the way it sounds from “Someday you will make a girl very happy” to “Someday you will make a girl very happy, but it will never be me, or anyone you are interested in.”, even if I am not interested in them. I know that is not what they mean, that would be impossible and imply delusional paranoia, it is just that I am too heartbroken.
The point is that, no matter if females think I am nice or not they never think of me as boyfriend material, I wish one did, even if I was not interested in her.
In my 24 years of life I never had a girlfirend, I never experienced what I wnat to experience ever since I remember (You can ask my mother)
And that is why I ask to the world something, What is wrong with me? What is wrong with my life? Why no female feels any kind of love interest in me, even when they say I am a nice person? Are they all lying to me? Why some females fall in love with someone who mistreats them? and more importnat. World, what the fuck is wrong with you that you like to make it harder for the nice people, both male and female, to find love, and you make it very easy to all the bad ones?
The sole exception to this rule are women far older than me, women who are old enough to be my mother or even grandmother, they think I would be a great boyfriend for their daughters or grand daughters.
The worst part of all this is that it makes me feel so alone because all of my friends alreadye were in at least one love relationship, that makes you feel like you were left behind.
Please, to all my female friends who migt read this, if this offends you let me know, just remember that for a guy who wanted to have a grilfriend ever since he was 4 years old, and now is 24 and never had a girlfrinend, it becomes a quite painful situation, to never have what you always wanted and needed, to be denied by fate what your instinct needs.
Also remember that this is not about you, I am not mad at any of you, I am mad at myself and the life this world gave me. And if you think it is about, much likely you should think about that, because it is not your fault, and if you think it is, you feel guilty for something, something I am not mad at you for.
P.S.: To the world, thank you for giving me all this missery, and fuck you!
The Monthly Truth Seeker. 