Journey into the self.

A few weeks ago I decided to read old blog posts, especially those of back when I was still hesitant on my stance on feminism (While I was starting to take the red pill). They are pathetic, or at least defeatist. I understood why most people refuse to take the red pill, and those  who do refuse to take the crimson pill and often prefer the black pill.

Giving in, and giving up. Refusing to face reality for what it is. Playing victim, blaming oneself for what is not one’s fault and blaming others for what IS one’s fault. Constant apologies. Constant self depreciation. It is all useless, but easier to do than saying “I’m out of this game. I won’t let you rule me.” and it is a lot more comfortable than saying “Maybe we should change the way things are.”

Some, the most depressing and defeatist posts in particular make me think I am a much better, saner, stable, and healthier person than before. Back then I felt a sense of defeat I don’t feel anymore. Back then I dealt with my suffering by giving up and letting it control my life.

Yes. I am still afraid of being rejected and failing at love. Yes, I am still struggling in that regard. But now at least I know there has to be something that I can do to change that.

I considered erasing those articles, especially the ones that seem immature, defeatist, or cucked. But I decided not to. Because that proves there is hope and a chance of growth and self improvement. They are a testament of the weak man I was and how I grew better.

Back then I was not crimson, I was an average blue pill struggling with reality. Now I face and admit that all the things I believed back then were a lie. Now I am a man who knows the following. The West is collapsing, society is broken, and I will prevail in the end.

I grew a set so to speak. So, there is hope. If I could grow, anyone could.

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A man who deserves recognition.

Long before the term male sexualism was coined, and long before anyone spoke truth on matters which male sexualists are associated to, there was a man who helped me understand the importance of freedom and how the feminist agenda opposed freedom.

Before him I was almost a paedocrite and a complete blue knight. I was red pilled, but not crimson pilled. I had some friends who were crimson pilled already, and who also contributed to my understanding of facts. But just like I was, they were a bit hesitant because they lacked sources and information.

That man, anonymous as he is, helped my small circle of friends by giving us information, both reliable and truthful, which we could use in intellectual debate to unmask the animals who speak solely on terms of emotional response and an obsession with power.

This man is who introduced many to many of those who have taken the title of male sexualism and who introduced even some of those male sexualists to anti feminism, and to the things both camps hold of value.

Not all his posts are available, but at least he remains truthful and honest where most just died or bent. And as such I consider him of utmost importance, for I fear his voice will be silenced if no one speaks with him, for him, and after he ceases speaking.

As such I will leave a link to his blog below, may the truth spread and lies wither as they should. It is the only way in which I could thank him for guiding me in a moment when things went bad for me.

The Anti-Feminist

The damage of being a blue knight.

It has been two years ago since I got my first death threat on private messaging and e-mail. Ever since then I noticed something curious.

The truth is, blue knights and femihags got something wrong in their head. Most of those e-mails have a rather deranged tone. Writing entirely in captions, full of expletives, threats, and describing acts of violence to be acted upon innocents in such a manner that make me think of a complete monster being the author.

Some, while coming from a different name, seem to be written by the same depraved hand. Curiously enough they seem to be accusing me of what they do, since they describe in detail acts I find disgusting and  would never accuse someone of performing unless I had proof.

Of course one of their most repugnant and outrageous claims is not just accusing me of being a pedophile (Sorry to disappoint you, but I am not sexually attracted to prepubescent females with no breasts at all), but going as far as to claim I did sexually abuse a child. Of course they just make mere assumptions, but they things they describe are so detailed and disgusting it feels disturbing to read their fanfic/confession projecting on me.

I keep my sex life generally private for a reason. Divulging such things benefits no one and is no one’s business. I know many idiots are eager to brag about who, what, how often, and when they have sex with. But I am no idiot. Whatever I let people know of my life is meant to serve an educational purpose, and that is not educational.

Of course I would rather not get such depraved mails and confessions of their own crimes or blue ball fantasies projected on me, but I welcome all that hate, for I know it is a sign I am pushing against real monsters. By the way, the next time someone describes such horrible acts in my inbox I will consider calling the cops. It worries me that someone who would merely think of doing such horrible things to other living being is so close to children, and actually claiming to protect them from others.

Pedo hysteria and pedocrites, including blue knights are disgusting. Not only they conflate normal male sexuality with pedophilia (Which has driven folks like NAMBLA to try to associate with male sexualism) but also they come up with the most outlandish forms of abuse imposed upon a human being.

I would rather let my children near an open pedophile, who finds the thought of performing the monstrous acts described in the hate mail I get revolting, than to let them even talk to one of the senders of such monstrous mails. Guys, do us a favor and seek help, and if I ever find any of you haters near a child I will warn that child of what you told me you secretly want to do to them.

Lies are the poison that enters the ear.

I have noticed, through the years, that most if not all politicians lie to achieve their goals. While this tactic is popular and might seem useful for instant gratification, anyone with a long term goal should avoid such idiocy.

Lies never last. Any lie, no matter how much it is paraded as truth, eventually dies out as people observe that “truth” is in conflict with what they live and experience. A leader might ascend by spreading lies and making false promises, but it NEVER stays in power for long enough to see a result. The people will eventually bring such a leader down.

Therefore a key to success, be it in politics or interpersonal relationships, is speaking truthfully or at least speak with what one sees as truth, given the fact that it is impossible to know everything about everything.

Truth, even when risky, is convincing, and increases charisma. The less one lies, the more people will trust that person. Of course, we live in a period in which people fear speaking the truth, an age of lies, but by breaking the cycle we can move on to a better future.

Fearing to speak the truth is a lot worse than refusing to lie only to appease a bunch of idiots who won’t support you anyway.

No, Patrick. Knee jerk reaction is not a counter argument.

Recently a few pages I follow on social media were negatively affected by “guidelines” for opposing feminism, the LGBT lobby, multiculturalism, and communism. It was clear Facebook and Twitter refused to acknowledge their rights to free speech in accordance to the first amendment which American companies should abide.

Not only that. Many of them were removed because people reported them. And I did notice something curious. Their detractors either reported them or went on an insult rampage, but non of them actually  refuted their arguments.

I have been there. I have been called “fucking pedophile” event though I got no interest in prepubescent females, just for saying teenagers are attractive to the average male (I am sure many of you will say “I didn’t know she was [X]teen at some point in your lives), by people who are either femihags, blue knights, or actual closet pedophiles (The most aggressive ones I am sure raped someone).

But, whenever I put the evidence on display, not a single one of them actually refutes it, and they keep calling me names. Of course, feminists not just call me names, they claim my evidence is false because I am a straight white male or because it was made by “patriarchal science.” After all, they think on terms of power, and they are unable to grasp any concept not directly tied to power or entirely independent of it (Such as love, loyalty, trust, self confidence, dignity… And nearly anything nice). They believe power is only used to oppress others, and never to help.

For such people those topics lead to a violent emotional response because they challenge their notion of the world. Now, I will admit I am no exempt of having a strong emotional response to anything I oppose, but if it is backed with evidence I consider reliable, I will at least be open to agree with some things.

For example, there are two camps of male sexualism. One neutral to porn and one against porn. I am in the neutral camp (Honestly all I want is to be free to love who I want and not be demonized as a male for my sexual preferences), but I have seen some strong evidence from the group against porn that at least reminds us we should draw a line.

It is true that many are negatively affected by some forms of pornography. And in fact I dislike studio pornography because it feels unpleasant, fake, unrealistic, and generally deviant. (No, Patrick. Scat is not normal sexual behavior, neither is BBW, gerontophilia, or anal prolapses). I do understand why some people would warn against such content. While I am against prohibition I agree there are some things that are not recommended and might harm your mind.

Several studies, which also prove women with more than 10 sexual partners are ruined mentally by it, prove excessive porn consumption, especially of extremely unrealistic material, leads to becoming a sexual deviant. Moderation is required, and I feel at ease because I prefer softcore content over hardcore fetish content.

My arguments in favor of pornography as an entirely harmless thing were partly refuted. While moderation keeps it harmless, there is a line in which the groups against pornography are right. If both sides remained in a knee jerk reaction instead of exposing evidence, arguments, and counter arguments, reason would never be achieved. But there is a bridge which allows communication.

Disagreement is part of intellectual discourse, so is arguing, but ad hominem attacks and immediate emotional response is not. Whenever you require to prove someone wrong, back your claims. Don’t just tell people they say bullshit, tell them why it is bullshit.

Disagreement as a source of accomplishment.

I am a very controversial figure, especially when it comes to my stance on age gaps between lovers and my stance on spirituality. With that said, and without delving deeper into those, I can tell I have a very controversial stance on disagreement.

Whenever a group of people start pushing for an endeavor as a team, there will always be disagreement, and I have seen that happen quite often. In most cases it is generally solved, but on occasion it leads to intrigue, infighting, or purge of “dissenters”.

As a general contrarian, I have been “purged” quite often from many circles, and found myself in conflict with former “comrades” on different matters. Recently I have taken the banner of male sexualism so to speak.

While I have always been clear with my end goal being to end the demonization of men, end the demonization of age gaps, end the government supported abuse of men, and overall give freedom to all, I am well aware different people in the same circles of male sexualism and anti feminism in general disagree with me on many, if not, most points.

I incline to support such disagreement, for a hivemind is what one should avoid. Cohesion and teamwork are great, but once dissenters are removed, restraint ends, and we see how that went for other movements in the past.

Especially feminism, the incarnation of all negative aspects of women (There are positive ones, in case you ask), has become an evident hivemind where any dissent is met with hostility. That of course gives them a lot of power, but also caused their current downfall since no one stopped them from doing what they do the best, ruining things, including their own movement.

Recently I read somewhere that male sexualism began to slowly adopt an anti porn and “no fap” stance so to speak. Well. That is a cause of worry for me as an individual. Honestly, if we take any freedom away from men in terms of sexuality, that is a reason of concern. Even if it is jacking off to a drawing of some fictional character, if male sexuality is restricted… Well… i don’t feel like that would be something I, as a male sexualist, would campaign for.

Of course, I am not telling people what to do, or what to think, but sincerely, porn and masturbation existed before feminism, so with all due respect, as someone whose sole purpose is to undo all laws imposed by feminism (Including any age of consent above 14), I won’t act against porn, and if that makes me controversial in yet another circle that is fine, and worthwhile.

I firmly believe such disagreements and resulting discussion are necessary for any team effort to function. Because, if even one single member of the team has a valid counter argument for or against something, it should be discussed, lest we become what we detest. Narrow minded dogmatic idiots who believe they are the only carriers of truth and entirely unable to make mistakes or wrong assumptions. Anyone who finds itself in the delusion of being immune to criticism risks causing great harm, especially when calling for a greater good.

Proving each other wrong leads, on the long run, to higher success rates than all agreeing to crash into a wall as feminists, especially aged up ones do in many senses. Hitting the wall is not a manly thing to do.

From a volcel to the incels of the world.

Look. Many of you are probably either resentful volcels who feel the world failed you or actual incels who are held back by either society or yourselves.

To those screwed over by society or biology (Born without a penis makes you a guaranteed incel, so does born disfigured), there is little advice I can tell you. Mostly because all you can do is try to fight back against society, but you won’t defeat biology. Sadly if you are born dickless, your best hope is biotechnology.

But for all those volcels and incels who lack confidence, well, let me tell you one of the most important things to realize is that the current sex market is broken. You should understand your worth is higher than media tells you. Even if you are not a footlong cockmonster hunk, you are much likely normal in looks, and have other traits to your advantage. Most females have none.

That is a fact. Most women have only their bodies to offer to the world, and once they are past the wall, they are done for good. But for men there is no fucking wall. Why? because our body is not our only tool to climb up in society. We can, and should, work hard to achieve our goals.

If you are ugly, work out. You will slowly notice your own sex market value the healthier you get. If you think you are stupid, study, and keep an eye on those “equal to you” and see how you are actually more intelligent than they are because you actually tried to be smarter and they didn’t.

We are expected to be something we can’t be by modern feminist societies. But the truth is, that only diminishes the sex market value of men. And once we start believing in ourselves we understand two things. First, being a volcel is better than having low quality sex with a dozen of femoids. Second, it is more likely that you are a volcel who resents the vast amount of low quality women than an incel.

After all, most men are capable of pleasing their sexual needs on their own, but they seek women to complete emotional and intellectual needs, and the amount of imbecilic femoids produced by feminism and mass media are the reason we feel frustrated, sexually, emotionally, and intellectually, even when we have a woman in our bed.

You owe women nothing, and they owe you quite a lot if they are like the average femoid, so start acting like you own the world.